Happy Mother's Day Everyone!
Let me first start by giving a shout out to my own mother! Without her I could never gotten through the infertility, the crazy, twin pregnancy, the infancy, the heart failure or the diabetes. I would have crumbled (& did many times on her shoulder). But throughout everything she just stood there solid as a rock. Letting me feel my feelings and helping me make plans to get past them. Coming with me to the doctor appointments, information gathering meetings, support groups and running to Babies R Us for preemie clothes for my 5 & 6 pound babies! Like a rock saying "ok, what's next? Where do you need me? How can I help?". Mom, for that and so much more, I thank you!
Ok, next. I would also like to say that during my infertility years (5 in all, ugh!), I hated Mother's Day. I hated the stupid commercials that kept saying how babies change everything. I hated the lines out of the restaurants with all the pretty moms dressed identical to their even prettier toddler girls. I hated the card section at Target and the roadside stand chock full of flowers! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! I hated it all because I wanted it so badly and there was never any hope in sight that i would get cards, flowers or get to match my kids. I know that sounds selfish, ugly and just plain old mean but when you are going through infertility, it sends you deeper and deeper into an ugly selfish world with each passing month. So, today if you know anyone going through infertility please, just leave them alone today but send them a nice text saying "thinking of you today. Hope you are doing ok". It will mean the world to your friend that you remembered she might be having a tough day but also respected what she is going through. So if she wants to feel ugly, she can without you even expecting anything else from her.
Now for the good stuff. How fun!!! Mother's Day Rocks! The boy's amazing first grade teachers put on a Mother's day tea for us all this Friday. It was the most adorable thing I have ever seen! They memorized and sang six songs. They learned the alphabet in sign language. Baked us muffins. Made us punch (no actual tea but who's counting). Painted us a flower pot with Popsicle stick flowers with jobs they could do for us. Gave us each a top ten list of all the reasons why they love us. And made a picture of each of their moms out of various papers. Mine actually look like me in two separate ways , of course. They worked on all of this stuff everyday for a month and it showed. It was divine.
However, it was also gut wrenching. The dilemma was that both boys worked so hard and were so excited to present their stuff but they were in separate classrooms this year. So anytime I would be in one guy's classroom. The other guy sat in his classroom with no mom. OMG!! I wanted to die. We ended up just working it out by me running to and fro between the two rooms. Eventually, Rocco ended up in Zeke's classroom with us. But, to be honest Rocco kind of got the short end of the stick. A month ago the boys requested to be in the same room. I struggled with this because there are so many great reasons to put them together and so many to keep them apart. But as far as the groups functions that happen simultaneity, I am all for the same classroom! Having twins is amazing because you get double the love but it does get a little tricky sometimes!
So, I hope you all enjoyed your burnt toast and coffee-grind coffee breakfast in bed this morning! I actually got a text (so high tech) from my little men because my mom took them over night while Michael and I went to a concert and acted as if we were single again! Great start to a pleasant day!
Hope you enjoy your day! Gotta run and pick up the monsters so I can finally be the girl who stands outside the restaurant with her perfectly matching boys. Only problem is, that means I have to wear an Angry Birds T shirt. Lol! Not exactly the picture I had in mind ten years ago but I'll take it!
P. S. this week I am participating in Diabetes Blog Week. It means that I will be posting something every day. So if you would like to, log on lots this week. I hopefully will have a new post each day!